I have been thinking recently about the idea of humility. If there ever was an elusive characteristic, humility is it. How does one actually be humble? It seems to me that if one believes themselves to be said humble, then that individual is not, in fact, humble. Humble people do not think they are humble. At the same time though, humility is something one has to make an effort to achieve. If there is anything I have learned in this season of my life, it is that humility does not happen upon a girl by accident. While deliberately trying to be humble, I cannot acknowledge it, should I attain it. Right? Not right?
In light of my circumstances (unemployed, uncertain, slightly overdramatic) I have come to learn that one tiny part of humility is still being confident despite my circumstances. Yes, I said confidence! Being confident that what God says about Himself and what He says about me is still true despite what I am tempted to think. I think it may be humble to trust God and continue to hope in Him, even when your mind tells you that it is useless. To be able to say, Yep, this happened! and then… move on. To keep doing whatever it is you need to do. What in the world would it look like for me to accept my circumstances and not let my pride get in the way of seeing what can be born out of my current place?
Yeah, I have definitely not mastered this. Not even close. But, I’m just saying,
“But I will hope continually,
and will praise you yet more and more.”